Hi Megan,
First of all, I am so sorry to hear about your dad's diagnosis. My dad was diagnosed with GBM on Veteran's Day, 2008. He bent down to plug in a power took and went into a full seizure, and we thought he was being electrocuted and the paramedics thought he had suffered a heart attack.. After another seizure and a second ambulance trip to the ER, we found he had a brain tumor in the left side of the brain.He was 62.
After surgery to remove as much of the tumor as possible, he underwent 6 weeks of radiation and took Temodar at the same time. Two weeks after he completed that cycle, his MRI revealed the tumor had continued to grow. The next few weeks were terrible as we watched him grow week and dependent before our eyes.
My dad's primary caregiver is my 72 year old mother. My mom has been almost totally dependent on my dad ever since they married, she has rarely even shopped for groceries. She can be quite a handful as she is spoiled (by my dad) and accustomed to getting her way. She is childlike in a lot of ways. She and I have had a rocky relationship at times, and recently she and my brother have had words, because we are all stressed about Dad. Thank God, she has come about and actually become a 'caregiver', probably the best she has ever been in her life, and has become good at taking care of him. It took quite a bit of talking and explaining to make her understand this is about HIM, not HER. But it is about her too, since this is her mate, and most of the care falls on her.
The biggest help has been that we have all turned to God, and have placed my dad's future in His hands. You have to help your Dad to come to peace with his situation, and have him realize that God's will will be done, and that He wants us to fight it and do all we can to overcome it, but to reach a peaceful place in his heart and his soul. He has to be reassured that his wife will be taken care of after he is gone. Since we have told my Dad that we will take care of Mama (no matter how difficult she is) after he is gone, he has been more at peace.
Our family has never been church-goers. We believe in God but have never had wonderful conversations about it nor felt comfortable discussing God with each other beyond a few statements. But as soon as a pastor friend visited and opened it up for discussion, it has become easier and easier for us all to talk about our beleifs, and it is such a blessing to hear my dad say he knows where he will go if he doesn't beat this thing.
On a final note, two weeks ago we were told to call in hospice care. My dad had become totally bed ridden, only to get up once or twice a day to eat , bathe, or use the bathroom. He could barely lift his arm up off the bed. He had just finished Round 2 of chemo and we thought he just can't take this. But he is on the 'chemo free' weeks of the cycle now, and he is able to lift his 2lb weights while laying down or in his chair. He has been pulling up in the walker from a seated position on the bed, and one day moved himself from the bed to his wheelchair, unassisted.We have NOT called in hospice. (Hospice won't get involved until the patient is finished with all life saving/extending efforts such as chemo, radiation, etc.)
He has a blood clot in his right leg from medications and inactivity, he has thrush in his mouth, he had to have 2 bags of fluid for dehydration last week, and struggles with constipation, but his will to beat this is unbelievable. He went from not wanting to eat two weeks ago, to eating several good meals a day, plus a couple of bottles of Ensure each day.
We go tomorrow for a check up with his oncologist, who wants him to stop taking chemo. We are going to tell his doctor this is not his choice, he wants to keep it up. Also, we are inquiring into a new drug about to be approved for GBM patients called Avastin. Please read up on it!
He has such a great attitude, never complains, and always smiles and tries to make us smile.
Megan, don't give up on your dad. To the last minute of his life, help him to find peace and find out what he wants done (as far as treatments, burial, your mom) while he can still talk and think. Support him with phone calls, words of encouragement, cards. Put him on every prayer list you can think of. Pray to God and ask him to help heal your relationship with your mom. Even if it is just little tiny steps, it will help.
God bless you, God bless your Dad, and God bless your Mom and whole family. I pray your dad will find some treatment to make his quality of life better!
Carolyn