Darker Days Ahead

hi skipp

you crossed my mind today... long time and i havent heard of you...

well, i read your post again and again... i think im becomin a bit agressive towars everyone! i couldnt take more! work, house, baby, husband, cancer, everything!!!! i think, maybe i should become sick to get some attention... but as i wrote in an older post, these thought r like blinks, they cross my mind quickly and make them go away quickly also -bcs i have a list of things waiting for me to be done!!!

my daughter had fever for z last 3 days, i guess this made things worst... lack of sleep to top everything else!!

god forgive please, please, please!!

I am so sorry you are going through all of this. I hear and understand your deep frustration. My prayer for you is peace that surpasses all understanding. Focus on the ONE who loves you the most and will never leave you nor forsake you. He is ALL we need, especially when we are facing the darkest of days. He is the only one who can bring His Light into the darkness. Anger is a normal reaction, but please don't set up camp there for too long. No person can satisfy your deepest need right now, only Jesus can. He loves you and desires for you to rest in Him. I have confidence that the Lord will direct your path as you have shared that you are a believer. As a sister in Christ, my prayers and heart go out to you. May you find that path less traveled. 

You are absolutely right.  I find it easier to talk it then to walk it on a daily basis.

A few days ago I lost a friend.  She, her family, myself and doctors felt that she had the Faith, strength and attitude to beat cancer and follow a path closer to Christ.  She went from great to gone in a week, was only 21 with her whole life in front of her filled with expectations of what is assumed by us as normal.

She doesn't have to rely on Hope and Faith anymore, only Peace and Glory, by Christ's side.

Please be assured that you have every reason to be angry even furious at your situation and the people that seemly are unloving toward you or sympathatic. I believe God also understands your anger. Cancer sucks! Bottom line. My encouragement is to walk through the anger, but try not to stay there. The enemy would dance for joy if you did. 

I've followed your postings for a few months now. I've been so impressed on your selfless ways you encourage others, when you yourself are suffering so. God is using you in powerful ways to bring love and encouragment to others. I admire you and the courage it took to be vunerable and honest with how you are feeling. You were very transparent and real. That too, God is using for others. 

I am so sorry you are going through this horrific journey of cancer and pray for more days filled with joy and peace.