i couldn't find your story i found some conversations you had with people but anyways i guess you can write and tell me or give me a direct route to your story web site.okay i'll begin.i was pregnant last year, at about 6 months my stomache started to hurt real bad i'm not a big complainer so i dealt with it because i knew it was my stomache and didn't feel it had any thing to do with baby this was my 3rd pregnancy.i have 3 children 9,5,and 10 months.my ob thought it was a hernia so after the baby i went to my six week check up and then got a referral to a gi doc because the pain was still there i couldn't lay on my stomache it was tender to touch.ended up being a football size tumor encircling my whole transverse colon from the inside out.i had surgery 2 weeks later 2/06. they also removed 17 lympnods 15 were cancerous.i healed from surgery for every bit of the 6 weeks,then went to my oncologist in 4/06.started chemo.at that appointment they found it in my neck cause at first we were thinking i was a 3, but my oncologist said i was most likely going to be a 4 cause he said it seemed to be more hereditary and genetic and i would most likely have tumors start popping up every where.which is exactly what has seemed to have happened because it is now also in my lungs,and liver.the 1st chemo folfox did not work for me i am now on folfire which looks like it may be working it dropped my cea by 10 points after just a couple treatments.i did complete blood work up friday,new cat scans saturday,and i go to doc wednesday so need extra prayers tuesday night.kinda scarred it's not working only because the tumor in my neck feels like tumors and just feels like it's getting bigger. it is definitely a daily reminder to be able to feel that in my neck.my oncologist was surprised when the 2nd treatment seemed to work only because he said if it was going to work it usually works the 1st time.we have known since the begining it was going to be tricky anyways cause it's signet ring.it seems like a death sentence.i was diagnoised at 29 and turned 30 in 3/06.i was told it will not go into remission when i was told i was a stage4.and i know the doctors are not GOD and hopefully we(GOD and I) will prove them wrong and i will have a miracle and be healed because it is up to GOD weither i live or die.i want to live like everyone else of course.i also just want to feel normal again.so had you metastisized?from stories i read it seems like the only people that survive are the ones who get it removed and i don't think i'm eligible for surgery.what do you think look forward to hearing from you.talk to you soon.GOD BLESS!. jennifer