Poem: Dear God

Poem I wrote to God

Dear God,

I love my daddy very much
and I don't want him to go
But I know there ain't much I can do
Once you call him he will go

He has been so sick for so long
Fought so hard and so strong
His battle is almost over
For the light is getting brighter

He is beginning to leave us
Which is leaving me breathless
Everyday you get closer
In a way gives me pleasure

Soon all his pain will be taken away
When you come and show him the pathway
I will be heartbroken when you do
and oh so blue

I know it's for the best
But it don't mean I can't be in protest
I'll see him again one day
When it is my time to walk up the stairway

It takes a lot for me to ask this
Cause I know what I will miss
But I do this out of Love
Pure as a white dove

So God I ask you this
I'll even give you a big kiss
Don't let my Daddy suffer anymore
He has had enough to endure

I love him enough to let him go
Even though I will be full of sorrow

I love you daddy
Always & Forever

Nancy

Beautiful!!

Thank You

On Jun 18, 2012 8:04 PM DemAngel wrote:

Poem I wrote to God

Dear God,

I love my daddy very much
and I don't want him to go
But I know there ain't much I can do
Once you call him he will go

He has been so sick for so long
Fought so hard and so strong
His battle is almost over
For the light is getting brighter

He is beginning to leave us
Which is leaving me breathless
Everyday you get closer
In a way gives me pleasure

Soon all his pain will be taken away
When you come and show him the pathway
I will be heartbroken when you do
and oh so blue

I know it's for the best
But it don't mean I can't be in protest
I'll see him again one day
When it is my time to walk up the stairway

It takes a lot for me to ask this
Cause I know what I will miss
But I do this out of Love
Pure as a white dove

So God I ask you this
I'll even give you a big kiss
Don't let my Daddy suffer anymore
He has had enough to endure

I love him enough to let him go
Even though I will be full of sorrow

I love you daddy
Always & Forever

Nancy

This poem is very beautiful...your father is very lblessed to have a you a very loving daughter!  When my call from God comes I know my family willl feel this same way..I've discussed end time  and my cnacer with my children letting them now II do not fear death but will embrace it because I know there is a place for me in the KINGDOM OF HEAVEN waiting for me. Hopefully your poem  will ease the pain of other at the time of loss of their loved one.  Thank yu Nancy

Talk about the tears flowing. I have read your posts tonight for the first time & my heart & prayers are with you. My Dad has had hep C for about 26 years, I knew it was getting worse and worse the past few months he was retaining fluid, jaundice, ascites, blood in stool, urine etc. He has had 6 liters of fluid drained, 4 pints of blood transfused when he was in the hospital about 10 days ago. They put a drainage tube/ shunt in & nothing has been drained since he left the hospital. (Hospice comes out every other day). Goes for ultrasound tomorrow to see what or where the fluid is building since its not draining. More tests & scans this week but I know the outcome is very limited. I really do wish you the best & as far as not telling to many people about it, If they really care about YOU they will care about your life & feelings as a human. It's OK to vent, cry, voice your opinion & do what makes YOU happy or feel comfortable. YOUR HUMAN TOO!!

I know what you are going threw it's not easy to see daddy's little girl leave her side. I truly wish you & your family the best, thoughts & prayers are with you.

love it, I was with my dad when he died, like he flew away, was beautiful. When I told him I would be okay, he took his last breath and was gone.  I am saving this poem.  God bless.

**goin to reply to all above in this post**

Thank you, I glad you liked my poem. I truelly hope it can ease the pain of saying goodbye. I haven't really been on this site much lately. My Daddy was called to HEAVEN on June 20th a little before 7am. I just looked at the date of when I posted the poem. It was 2 days before he passed away. I didn't realize the short time between the two. 

I wasn't with my dad when he died but most of the family was there. My Mom, sister & brothers were there. After my brother told him it was ok to go and that we loved him he took his last breath. Soon as I got the call I went to the house as fast as I could get there. Sometimes I wish I was there but then again I'm glad I wasn't. I do miss not being able to say I Love You and Goodbye one last time but if I was there I would have his face and final breath forever burned into my brain.

It's been 2 months now that he has been gone and to this day I can still see it all as if watching a movie from the moment I got the call to the funeral. I know everyone reacts differntly but I felt llike a odd ball amung the family. Looking at all there faces wet with tears and eyes blood shot and there I stand staring at him feeling lost, all my emotions seemed to be gone. Not a tear fell from my eyes. But I couldn't look away from him. I was the same at the viewing. We all brought photos so he could always see our faces. I made a bracelet for each of my kid's that said " I <3 U  Papa    "___name_____" and I put them on his wrist.  All of this continuously replays in the back of my head =\ 

In the last 2 weeks or could be 3 weeks, time passes so fast now .... 3 older people have died that were within my circle of family/friends. One died from Liver cancer like my Dad and it has trigged something within me that has made my world dark and sad. No matter what I do it just seems to get darker, day by day. I guess it's all the pain my mind had locked away when my dad died coming out all at once. I'm not really sure how to describe it but I'm sure I'm not the only person on this site that didn't or don't kinda feel this way.

No worries I have no intentions of hurt myself in anyway. Just tired of the pain that lyies within me. The invisiable darkness that consumes me. This all may be a normal thing I don't knwo never had someone close to me die.

I guess thats enough of me venting 

My thought and prays go out to all that read this and have a sick loved one or a loved that has already climbed to HEAVEN.

Nancy

On Jun 20, 2012 2:11 AM stlpresident wrote:

On Jun 18, 2012 8:04 PM DemAngel wrote:

Poem I wrote to God

Dear God,

I love my daddy very much
and I don't want him to go
But I know there ain't much I can do
Once you call him he will go

He has been so sick for so long
Fought so hard and so strong
His battle is almost over
For the light is getting brighter

He is beginning to leave us
Which is leaving me breathless
Everyday you get closer
In a way gives me pleasure

Soon all his pain will be taken away
When you come and show him the pathway
I will be heartbroken when you do
and oh so blue

I know it's for the best
But it don't mean I can't be in protest
I'll see him again one day
When it is my time to walk up the stairway

It takes a lot for me to ask this
Cause I know what I will miss
But I do this out of Love
Pure as a white dove

So God I ask you this
I'll even give you a big kiss
Don't let my Daddy suffer anymore
He has had enough to endure

I love him enough to let him go
Even though I will be full of sorrow

I love you daddy
Always & Forever

Nancy

This poem is very beautiful...your father is very lblessed to have a you a very loving daughter!  When my call from God comes I know my family willl feel this same way..I've discussed end time  and my cnacer with my children letting them now II do not fear death but will embrace it because I know there is a place for me in the KINGDOM OF HEAVEN waiting for me. Hopefully your poem  will ease the pain of other at the time of loss of their loved one.  Thank yu Nancy

Nancy, this poem was beautifully written with such love for your daddy.  My mom passed of breast and brain cancer like you I did not want my mom to die, but no more suffering did I want to see her endure either. Let me share with you what my mom told me when I told her I did not want to lose her.  Maybe this will help others too.

my mom told me: I MAY NOT BE WITH YOU IN BODY, BUT I WILL 'ALWAYS' BE WITH YOU. ALWAYS!

You know she is and sometimes I so feel her presents.

Bless you dear one.

On Aug 29, 2012 7:55 PM ridge556 wrote:

On Jun 20, 2012 2:11 AM stlpresident wrote:

On Jun 18, 2012 8:04 PM DemAngel wrote:

Poem I wrote to God

Dear God,

I love my daddy very much
and I don't want him to go
But I know there ain't much I can do
Once you call him he will go

He has been so sick for so long
Fought so hard and so strong
His battle is almost over
For the light is getting brighter

He is beginning to leave us
Which is leaving me breathless
Everyday you get closer
In a way gives me pleasure

Soon all his pain will be taken away
When you come and show him the pathway
I will be heartbroken when you do
and oh so blue

I know it's for the best
But it don't mean I can't be in protest
I'll see him again one day
When it is my time to walk up the stairway

It takes a lot for me to ask this
Cause I know what I will miss
But I do this out of Love
Pure as a white dove

So God I ask you this
I'll even give you a big kiss
Don't let my Daddy suffer anymore
He has had enough to endure

I love him enough to let him go
Even though I will be full of sorrow

I love you daddy
Always & Forever

Nancy

This poem is very beautiful...your father is very lblessed to have a you a very loving daughter!  When my call from God comes I know my family willl feel this same way..I've discussed end time  and my cnacer with my children letting them now II do not fear death but will embrace it because I know there is a place for me in the KINGDOM OF HEAVEN waiting for me. Hopefully your poem  will ease the pain of other at the time of loss of their loved one.  Thank yu Nancy

Nancy, this poem was beautifully written with such love for your daddy.  My mom passed of breast and brain cancer like you I did not want my mom to die, but no more suffering did I want to see her endure either. Let me share with you what my mom told me when I told her I did not want to lose her.  Maybe this will help others too.

my mom told me: I MAY NOT BE WITH YOU IN BODY, BUT I WILL 'ALWAYS' BE WITH YOU. ALWAYS!

You know she is and sometimes I so feel her presents.

Bless you dear one.

Thank you ... My dad will forever live within my heart, so I know he will always be with me =)

I didnt speak with my dad much about him leaving. No way I could have done it without crying and saying it out loud to him would have made it way to real for me. I was already shutting down before he left and didn't even releize it till way after he was gone. I'm not much on lettting people see me cry cause that only opens the door for people to ask questions. Like what's wrong? Why you crying? You want to talk about it?  Most of the time I don't want to talk about it. A lot of the time I can't put into words how I feel or why I feel that way. Also the fear of opening up letting someone behind my walls and getting feelings hurt cause they don't understand why I feel the way I do.

I've been doin so so since June 20. Been numb and in a way in emotional denial. Every once in awhile I would have a few tears drop but didn't last long maybe a few secs and then it was over. My mind would lock down again.

The last 2 weeks or so have been hell for me. A friends Father-in-Law died from Liver Cancer like my Dad and it triggered something in me and I have been in decline since then. Everyday I seem to feel worse, Its like my mind is letting all the pain out and I wasn't prepared for this and I don't want it. I'd give anything to make it go away. I take depression med and I hate to know what I might be like without it at this point. The only time I'm truely at peace is when I sleep. But as soon as I open my eyes I'm already sad and lost.

I just truelly don't know what to do. I can't just break apart what purpose does that serve but all I want to do lately is just lay in the bed and watch the same movies over and over again or listen to music.

I'm no stranger to depression. It has came and when more times then I could count over the years. But this one takes the cake.

I only speak of all this cause I know everyine here is either facing this or has already been though it.

Think I have got enough of my chest for now.

Prayers out to all on this site  *big hug*