Daddy Went to Heaven

On Jul 20, 2012 3:38 AM DemAngel wrote:

I wanted to let you all know that on 7-20-2012 @ 6:50am my Dad finally lost his battle with cancer and went to heaven. He is no longer in pain.

Not sure how to describe how I took it other then kinda Unemotional. Everyone around me crying but me. Me standing there just blacnk and empty. Be a month tomorrow he has been gone and I still really havn't morned for him the way I think I should have. I have barely cried. My mind just keeps it all locked in the back of my mind. Don't get me wrong I can still see the morning when I went over there after he died lying there no longer with us to the funeral just as if it was yesterday. That contiously plays in the very back of my mind all the time. When I do cry is only for secs and my mind takes back over and quickly shuts that off no matter how much I want to let it ou.

I am so sorry that your dad has lost his battle with cancer and there are no words to say to you to make you feel any better.

You will grieve in your own way and my heart goes out to you. I hope you have someone close that you can be able to talk to when you feel ready too. Maybe talking to someone will help you let out the tears.

I cannot begin to imagine how you feel but just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and hope you get stronger each day and each day remember all the good things that your Dad brought to your life and I am sure he will be watching over you and take care of you.

I am so sorry I really don't know what to say.

Take care

Cuddles

Lesley in Scotland

It is very sad but unfortunately it is  real. Life is hard.  For you, for us. Every person who is sick or who is having a relative around with this illness. It is very difficult to say sth. Take care of yourself.

On Jul 23, 2012 12:37 PM tosenk wrote:

It is very sad but unfortunately it is  real. Life is hard.  For you, for us. Every person who is sick or who is having a relative around with this illness. It is very difficult to say sth. Take care of yourself.

Keep strong. Sending you a big hug and cuddle.

Thinking of you.

Take care

x

On Jul 20, 2012 3:38 AM DemAngel wrote:

I wanted to let you all know that on 7-20-2012 @ 6:50am my Dad finally lost his battle with cancer and went to heaven. He is no longer in pain.

Not sure how to describe how I took it other then kinda Unemotional. Everyone around me crying but me. Me standing there just blacnk and empty. Be a month tomorrow he has been gone and I still really havn't morned for him the way I think I should have. I have barely cried. My mind just keeps it all locked in the back of my mind. Don't get me wrong I can still see the morning when I went over there after he died lying there no longer with us to the funeral just as if it was yesterday. That contiously plays in the very back of my mind all the time. When I do cry is only for secs and my mind takes back over and quickly shuts that off no matter how much I want to let it ou.

Don't be concerned with your lack of emotion or feeling of emptiness right now.  God provides us with a shut off valve so that when events become overwhelming or too much for us to handle, we can shut down until we are able to handle everything.  When you are emotionally able, He will allow the valve to slowly be turned back on.  God has also provided us with memories - and memories are what helps us deal with our emotions throughout the years.  Focus on remembering the good times with your Dad rather than your loss - as a mother, I am sure that is also what he would want.  My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time.     

Diana