I know exactly what you mean about the chemo side effects being worse than the cancer.
My sister was diagnosed with peritoneal carcinoma when she was 21 (scarily the same age I am today). I spent the entire summer with her at home while she went through surgeries and treatments. The scarriest part was the fact that it turned out she was allergic to Taxol, one of the most common chemos.Her reaction was horrific. (anyone reading this please dont panic because apparently reactions are very rare!! and your drs will know what to do)
Seeing her feel so sick was the hardest part. She was making great progress, but that didnt help how difficult it was to get through each week. She lost so much weight and couldnt keep any food down. She also ended up back in the hospital 4 months later with a drain in her stomach. She was too weak to get any more chemos and her body just shut down.
My best moments with my sister we when she had her good days, but everyday holds the hope and promise of something better. Everyone will have thier good days, take the time to enjoy it and build strenght for what comes next.
I have learned a lot from this disease and it is now helping me get through my mom being diagnosed with breast cancer 2 years after my sister. Finding the right support makes all the difference.