But whether that's good or bad isn't yet clear
by gericl on Fri Nov 23, 2012 05:43 PM
Lost my dear husband on 11/1/2012 - Peaceful passing in the arms of the wonderful son we raised. Pat was at home with his German Shepherd Cooter that was barking like crazy begging him to hang on. I am devastated! It was a 2 year long courageous battle. Patrick was a brilliant man and worked up to 5 months ago. I wanted so much more time. We were both ready to retire and take that joyous walk thru life that we had worked so hard to earn. Then this ugly monster decided to destroy our future. He fought this monster with a brave heart and held on as long as he could for me. He was admired by many for his highly technical mind and his ability to help people.
I envy those of you that still have time with your love ones. Use the time wisely; love and live hard.
I am angry with all the money that is given to cancer that we don't seem to be any closer and more angry at the insurance companies that dictate our futures. I knew they thought they could play doctor but never knew they got to play God!
My life will never be the same. I miss my Patrick so very much that there are times it takes my breath away. I am a strong woman, but all the preparation never prepared me for this vacant spot in my heart. I know he is in a better place, but I want him here with me. I am rich in memeories and that will help substaine me, but I so want him back. Side by side for 30 years. So lonely now! I want My Patrick back!
by jon4156 on Fri Nov 23, 2012 07:11 PM
Very sorry to hear about your husband passing. Being robbed of your retirement years together is very hurtful but seems to be a common artifact of this disease for many. I wish you only the best as you move on from this chapter of your life.
by siblingof on Sat Nov 24, 2012 01:12 AM
by bpp30m on Sat Nov 24, 2012 05:36 AM
Geri, so sorry for your loss, its just not fair. my prayers are with you and your family
by BillsBeembo on Sun Nov 25, 2012 06:05 AM
by Danny52 on Sun Nov 25, 2012 11:56 PM
Geridi, I know so well your feelings. My Danny died Oct.14th and I really thought I was doing okay but have been missing him so much lately. My rational mind says that he is in a better place and the suffering has ended but like you, I really really want him back. I think that maybe we pass from the first feelings of relief that the fight is over to the realization of everything we have lost in our lives with their death. It all is just so sad for all of us survivors and I know that it is something we all have to get through in our own way and in our own time. Love to you and yours.
by number9 on Mon Nov 26, 2012 05:50 PM
Dear Geri ... may you feel enfolded in many heart hugs of compassion from those touched by Pat's life. Thank you for sharing your beloved with us. To pass peacefully, in the arms of your son ... so beautiful ... really, truly beautiful. Hoping for many moments to be gentle upon your heavy heart. Peaceful hope. De
by dadsglio on Wed Nov 28, 2012 08:16 PM
My dad also chose to leave his cancered body and went on to be my Guardian Angel this November. My parents were robbed of their retirement years together. He had only retired a month when we found out Mr. Healthy had a brain tumor and probably colon cancer. It totally sucks. My dad was the best. My mom was married to him just over 49 years and they were supposed to go on an Alaskan cruise. Instead he was in rehab relearning how to walk, sit, stand and use his left side. This is hard for those of us left. I know he is in a better place. Those words do not heal us. I am still in the spin of not knowing how to feel. I want to feel better so I rationalize.
Prayers to you.
by DavidZ on Wed Nov 28, 2012 08:38 PM
I am sorry for the loss of your husband....my prayers are with you.
I dread the future for us and can not begin to comprehend what I will go through. But I want to think that if or when I lose my wife to this dreadful disease....that she will reamin with me always.
by Ducks-n-Row on Wed Nov 28, 2012 09:03 PM
As his stone is tossed into the still pound, the ripple is felt by all.....
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