My husband lost his battle with Pancreatic Cancer.

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My husband lost his battle with Pancreatic Cancer.

by kerryfriend on Fri Nov 30, 2012 07:04 PM

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I have had a very hard time since the passing of my husband. He passed away in our home on 10-19-12. Just a week and one day after being put on hospice. He was put on hospice on Thursday and the following Friday he was gone. Thursday and Friday we were still trying to process the news. He wasn't able to lay flat in bed for a couple of weeks before he passed. He was sleeping in his chair and I was sleeping on the couch to be closer to him. After going to sleep on Friday when we wake up on Saturday I was in such shock. He was so yellow and his eyes were so yellow. We were suppose to get together with family but I called and had them come to us. I value those days that in the early morning hours he was at his best. His speech was slow and sometimes sounded like he had been drinking but those first few mornings he was speaking clearly. He told that I was his hero, I said I am? Why is that? He said that I took such good care of him and he loved me and was so proud that I was his wife. I will never forget those moments. He was my soul mate, lover and best friend. I am having such a hard time with losing him. I am talking to someone now and am on meds. I am broken hearted and lost apart of myself. He was dx on October 5,2011 and was such a fighter. He had stage 4 with mets to his liver. Since his passing I have cried a lot with our Anniversery on Nov. 12, my birthday Nov. 15 and Thanksgiving. Christmas was his favorite holiday and I am trying to embrase it but I am so lonely. I am not sleeping and have been having bad dreams. This is the first time that I was there when someone passed. This was a life changing moment to see the love of my life take his last breath. I was not prepared for what I was going to see or hear. It has taken me this long to even be able to post anything on here. I continue to pray for all of you and fighting this beast. I hope that they can find a cure and find it earlier instead of late stages. Thoughts and prayers to all. Kerry

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by sheann on Fri Nov 30, 2012 07:44 PM

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On Nov 30, 2012 7:04 PM kerryfriend wrote:

I have had a very hard time since the passing of my husband. He passed away in our home on 10-19-12. Just a week and one day after being put on hospice. He was put on hospice on Thursday and the following Friday he was gone. Thursday and Friday we were still trying to process the news. He wasn't able to lay flat in bed for a couple of weeks before he passed. He was sleeping in his chair and I was sleeping on the couch to be closer to him. After going to sleep on Friday when we wake up on Saturday I was in such shock. He was so yellow and his eyes were so yellow. We were suppose to get together with family but I called and had them come to us. I value those days that in the early morning hours he was at his best. His speech was slow and sometimes sounded like he had been drinking but those first few mornings he was speaking clearly. He told that I was his hero, I said I am? Why is that? He said that I took such good care of him and he loved me and was so proud that I was his wife. I will never forget those moments. He was my soul mate, lover and best friend. I am having such a hard time with losing him. I am talking to someone now and am on meds. I am broken hearted and lost apart of myself. He was dx on October 5,2011 and was such a fighter. He had stage 4 with mets to his liver. Since his passing I have cried a lot with our Anniversery on Nov. 12, my birthday Nov. 15 and Thanksgiving. Christmas was his favorite holiday and I am trying to embrase it but I am so lonely. I am not sleeping and have been having bad dreams. This is the first time that I was there when someone passed. This was a life changing moment to see the love of my life take his last breath. I was not prepared for what I was going to see or hear. It has taken me this long to even be able to post anything on here. I continue to pray for all of you and fighting this beast. I hope that they can find a cure and find it earlier instead of late stages. Thoughts and prayers to all. Kerry

So sorry Kerry to hear your sad news, there are no words to comfort you just thought I would send you a message to let you know you are in my prayers, you sound as if you have a lot of happy memories that you shared with your husband, from another fighter trying to win time with this desease, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sheann

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by eastwest on Fri Nov 30, 2012 08:21 PM

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Kerry   I am so sorry for your loss. Even though I worked as a hospice nurse for many years nothing prepares you for the loss of your husband, lover, best friend. Try and take it slow. Be as kind to yourself as possible. Come to the bereavement site when you need to vent. We understand there as many who have not suffered this loss don't. If you read I can give you the names of many books by widows that i found helpful that first year. Somehow you will make it through those days. I would also say that the anticipation of those special days is sometimes worse then the actual day itself.  Try to eat right and get rest. I know sleep was hard for me. Gentle exercise too. Do what YOU feel like as far as the holidays. I didn't put a tree up last year and probably won't this year since it was just the two of us.  Here for you, Irene

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by Jayday on Fri Nov 30, 2012 10:24 PM

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On Nov 30, 2012 7:04 PM kerryfriend wrote:

I have had a very hard time since the passing of my husband. He passed away in our home on 10-19-12. Just a week and one day after being put on hospice. He was put on hospice on Thursday and the following Friday he was gone. Thursday and Friday we were still trying to process the news. He wasn't able to lay flat in bed for a couple of weeks before he passed. He was sleeping in his chair and I was sleeping on the couch to be closer to him. After going to sleep on Friday when we wake up on Saturday I was in such shock. He was so yellow and his eyes were so yellow. We were suppose to get together with family but I called and had them come to us. I value those days that in the early morning hours he was at his best. His speech was slow and sometimes sounded like he had been drinking but those first few mornings he was speaking clearly. He told that I was his hero, I said I am? Why is that? He said that I took such good care of him and he loved me and was so proud that I was his wife. I will never forget those moments. He was my soul mate, lover and best friend. I am having such a hard time with losing him. I am talking to someone now and am on meds. I am broken hearted and lost apart of myself. He was dx on October 5,2011 and was such a fighter. He had stage 4 with mets to his liver. Since his passing I have cried a lot with our Anniversery on Nov. 12, my birthday Nov. 15 and Thanksgiving. Christmas was his favorite holiday and I am trying to embrase it but I am so lonely. I am not sleeping and have been having bad dreams. This is the first time that I was there when someone passed. This was a life changing moment to see the love of my life take his last breath. I was not prepared for what I was going to see or hear. It has taken me this long to even be able to post anything on here. I continue to pray for all of you and fighting this beast. I hope that they can find a cure and find it earlier instead of late stages. Thoughts and prayers to all. Kerry

i amm so sorry for your loss i also lost my husband on the 16 nov. i know what you are goin though. i am devatasted .my husband was my best friend we did everything together. aithough i have good family and friends i feel so lonely without him.my thoughts and prayers are with you take care.

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by lucky2Bhere on Sat Dec 01, 2012 12:51 AM

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Dear Kerry,

I am so sorry for the loss of your husband, no words can take away your pain, just please know that the families on this forum, share your hurt & want to help in any way possible. If you need to talk, we are there for you. Praying for you, may God Bless You, may you find peace. May you always feel the love of your husband surround you. Hugs. Candy 

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by eternalife on Sat Dec 01, 2012 02:00 AM

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Hello Kerryfriend,

I can only express my sorrow and deep sympathy in the passing of your beloved husband. Like all the others who have posted before me.. there are no words to lessen your pain. Take it slow.. you will make it... My husband has stage iv EC and I am taking just one day at a time... not easy as you have walked a similar walk... keep checking in on the site and there is a lot of support here from other grieving ladies on the bereavement site. Stay connected and that may help....

Take care and be good to yourself....

You are worth it...

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by ws1953 on Sat Dec 01, 2012 04:17 AM

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I am really sorry to hear the sad news.  I wish I had words to comfort and sustain you in your grief, but I know there are none that will take away any pain you are feeling now. 

I hope the precious memories you have of your precious husband will one day bring you comfort. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this sad and difficult time. 

Wishing you peace and healing,

WS

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by ammarsheikh on Sat Dec 01, 2012 04:05 PM

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On Dec 01, 2012 4:17 AM ws1953 wrote:

I am really sorry to hear the sad news.  I wish I had words to comfort and sustain you in your grief, but I know there are none that will take away any pain you are feeling now. 

I hope the precious memories you have of your precious husband will one day bring you comfort. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this sad and difficult time. 

Wishing you peace and healing,

WS

Kerry very sorry to hear the demise of your husband. Accept my condolences. May God give the strength to bear this immortal loss. You are in our prayers. Hopefully time will heal you .Best wishes

Ammar 

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by Canary92 on Sat Dec 01, 2012 10:47 PM

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I am so sorry for your loss.  My thoughts and prayers are with you in this difficult time.

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by bushy on Sun Dec 02, 2012 01:56 AM

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kerryfriend

I am sorry for the loss of your loved one , condolences to you

bushy

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