But whether that's good or bad isn't yet clear
by oakisland on Mon Dec 24, 2012 01:36 AM
I miss my best friend, no matter how many Christmas wishes there are I can't have mine. memories are precious. I have a few, (actually I have many). I'm sure you do too. Think of one and hold it tight...Wish yourself a Merry Little Chirstmas with that memory......Merry Christmas!
by pipperpain on Mon Dec 24, 2012 02:11 AM
Great idea. Hang onto that memory on christmas and on everyday that you want to. Memories become more precious as time passes. After i was married 38 years I made a scrapbook of our married life for myself and copies for all our kids who are grown and left the nest. It was probably their favorite gift that year. Now, their father has passed on and they have these organized memories to remember him. Also a MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone on this site who is connected with this dreaded desease in some way. BLESS YOU ALL love linda
by JackieJo on Mon Dec 24, 2012 08:04 PM
My 58 yr old husband, Joe, has been gone 17 months now. He passed away, at home, on July 21, 2011 after a 9 month battle with Esophageal cancer with mets to the liver. The memories of our life together makes me cry but at the same time I feel blessed to have those beautiful memories. I still miss Joe with all my heart and cry almost daily. To friends and family I appear to be doing really good...on the outside... but what they don't know is that I've become a pro at hiding my true feelings and that inside I am broken and shattered. I did make a large photo album of our years together starting from the time we met and married, up until the time we scattered some of Joe's ashes...his dying request...on our jette in DennisPort, Cape Cod. I'm in constant emotional pain since Joe's death but I am forever grateful that I had the years that we had together and the memories we made during those years. I would have rather had Joe for the time we had together then to have never known him at all. My life is better because of Joe and I would never regret being his wife even if I knew how it all would end. I'm sure that everyone here on CC can relate to that. We are all in pain but our memories and our loved ones spirit help us through.
Keeping all of you close to my heart and in my prayers. May 2013 be a healing year us and may we find peace and comfort in the beautiful memories of our loved ones, that have passed over.
Wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas!
Love, hugs and continuing prayers,
by angel1959 on Mon Dec 24, 2012 09:15 PM
jackie I feel the same way ok on the outside but the inside is what hurts i liked what you said about you was glad you had him than not ever having him i have the same feelings too he taught me so much and he was so strong as i am sure your husband was with his battle i found a old pair of pj,s that my husband got me one year for christmas i took a hot bath and put them on he will allways be with me and my sister gave me a picture of us that was taken this summer when he was not sick and i have it by me on my computer desk my husband donated his body to science so when i get the ashes i have a locket to put some in that says always in my heart you have a good christmas also and know you are thought of
by never-too-late on Tue Dec 25, 2012 04:40 AM
Jackie and all of us who share your pain. You couldnt have said it any better....thank you for expressing your feelings as that is exactly how I feel each and every day. This is the 1st year without George, last was a blur as he died on December 23rd. May God grant us peace and grace.
by eastwest on Tue Dec 25, 2012 04:06 PM
by angel1959 on Tue Dec 25, 2012 04:43 PM
I wore my Christmas pajamas to bed that my husband Ricky got me a few years ago it brought back memories and made me feel close to him this year and day is hard for me as it is my first Christmas without him but i know i am not alone and my heart goes out to all of you some of you it has been more than one year and the pain is still with you,and i know it will be the same with me too Thanks to all of my friends that have helped me through my rough days and nights since i lost my husband
by jaycc on Wed Dec 26, 2012 05:58 PM
Thank you all for your posting, similar this is 14 months since my husband went to heaven.
Glad to hear others made photo albums, I'm doing the same It makes me happy, and hope to use it to share memories to grandchildren who didn't get to share their grandfather. Hoping it doesn't make other family members feel uncomfortable.
Positive on the outside as others have said. I think it good for people around us, and probably in a way good for us too. (gets me a little tired sometimes) Though those tears still come when no one is looking.
I find comfort in the simple things, sharing a sunrise with heaven, and a favorite song. Through the cold, the rose bush had a fresh bloom on Christmas.
So warmth across Christmas and the Holy Holiday's to all of you, sending through hugs.
by pipperpain on Thu Dec 27, 2012 09:06 PM
i made it through christmas. i listened to alot of christmas carols with Denny constantly on my mind. When they sang what child is this, i thought of Denny and whispered it is your child returned to thee, thinking of Denny returning home to God. At the end of silent night, the sleep in heavenlu peace had a new special meaning as it was me wishing Denny to sleep in heavenly peace. could that help any of you?
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