I had cancer of the left tonsil and it had spread to lymph nodes same side. May 5, 2005 had both tonsils removed. 36 radiation treatment and 6 months of chemo. I have about 30% loss of syliva glands and taste buds are up to about 50% but blinks out to zero at times. The pain in mouth, tongue and ears still present, but seems to still be healing little by little. So I still have hope that it will get better. I drink bottled water and keep it with me at all times. I was getting pains in my leggs and found out to much water can cause it. So sometime I drink gatoraide. You get use to it after awhile. Live a lot on the memory of the taste of food. Food smells good and the softer the better - lots of potatoes and gravy and soft veggies. Yogart is good. I brush teeth several times a day and floss. Keep mouth as clean as possible is the best advice I can give and keep positive out look. My ears ring alot and hurt. The chemo caused nerve damage in my face, hands, arms, leggs and feet. Chemical Oncologist gave me amitriptoline an antidepressent for the nerve damage and it helps me sleep. I work full time and am 52 years old. My husband died last year and I feel guilty cause I thought it would be me, but he had a heart attack and I miss him badly. He was my rock and now it is just me and his big old smelly dog (Dakota). He is a Rottweiler who is 11 years old and I love him. I would give anything to have my Darwin back, I would even trade places with him if I could. Don't get me wrong I don't want to die, I just that I am not as scared of it as I use to be.
I lost 55lbs during the radiation and chemo and was at about 95lbs when I completed the chemo. I am 5'7" and now am back upto 120lb. I lost all my hair and when it came back it was curly. I didn't use a feeding tube, because I was afraid of not being able to eat, if I stopped swollowing - I numbed my throat and mouth and drank liquid supplement drinks. It was about 6 months before I could really start eating enough with out the supplments. I wished I had known about the nerve damage from the chemo, because I would of stopped the last set of treatments when I started to loss feeling. I have had clear Pat scans for two years now, but am always afraid that the cancer may come back. I just don't want to go thru the rad. and chemo again. I just try to be happy and be kind to other people. I know now that life is too short and there are enough hard times with out causing them. I was a smoker but not a drinker. I think stress plays a big part in causing changes in your body that contribute to cancer. I know I am rambling and my spelling stinks, but I just wanted to let people know I'm still here even though the tonsil cancer had spread to my lymph nodes. My radiation Oncolgist said it was a large mass and he gave me the highest dose if radiation that he had given to anyone. He said 10 years ago there wouldn't have been any hope, and that I almost died. I was in the hospital 3 times for transfusions during the chemo. the doctor said that since I made it 2 yrs I should expect to be around 10 year or more before the odds start going up again (due to secondary cancers from the radiation). The biggest point that he made is that we are making history, because we are surviving longer. The long term side effects from the treatments are not as well documented and so these messsage boards are one way that we can document info that may be found any where else. Hopfully my rambling will give someone hope.