Hi Daisy,
Yes I have been to the other website, and then some. As much as I am getting educated on the medical realities of the cancer, I am also getting exposure to the emotional side too. Just on Friday my cath was removed and at first things seemed to work fine. On Saturday I was having pain and trouble urinating again. On Sunday morning there was blood in the toilet and I almost hyperventilated. I called DR terrified. Feeling "safe" seems to be a distant memory.
On Wednesday the Dr is doing frozen section biopsies to see if my bladder neck is ok and to be sure the margins are clean. Then he will telll if I can neobladder, idiana bag or if a stoma is the best I can do. The anxiety level is about overwhelming.
The 1st DR who did the TUR and tumor removal 10 days ago is no longer my DR. He got very upset that I am not trusting the BCG to be effective based on the 2nd opinion from UW MAdison. I asked him to still be my urologist after the UW treatments and that will not be ok by him. UW DR even called ( with some operative note questions) and the treatment was argued. This happen with anyone else?
I trust my UW DR and I feel confident with how we are proceeding to beat the cancer. I am trying to gain more control over the freaking out moments but they seem to come out of nowhere. This is normal?
Thank you for the input and support, I wish all the very best and God Bless, Holly