My boyfriend who i loved very much and was also my best friend died about a month ago. He was only 21. We lived together in a small townhouse and went to college together in a small college town.
I now live alone, and most of my friends aren't being that supportive. They seemed to care a little bit at first, but now they have all went back to their normal lives. They know i'm hurting, but i just consider them lost causes as friends because they would be here for me if they were my true friends, and i don't think i should even have to ask them, but i never made that many good friends here in the first place. I was mostly here to live with my boyfriend. We were together 4 years and i wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I feel so alone. I tried to get into group therapy at the hospice, but they told me that i can't join till summer session because they already started about a week ago. I've tried regular therapy, but it doesn't seem to work for me. I seem to get nothing out of it, that is why i wanted to join group therapy because i though having others around that went through the same thing would help.
I spend every day alone in this house with all the memories we made here. I don't know what to do anymore. I am so lost without him. My whole life is going to be different now and i don't know if i can handle that.