Hi not completely alone........Your never alone, there is always someone out there that has experienced the same thing...loosing someone they love and don't think they can go on. I pray that you wake up every morning with a little more hope for a better tomorrow. Your boyfriend will always be with you in your heart. Please pray to God for help, strength, and the ability to go on. And just talk out loud to him, your boyfriend..it works. Do you not have support from your family or his family? I'm sorry you feel all alone but I do know it will get better. Don't be too mad at your friends, it is very difficult for some people to handle death and if your in a college town then they are trying to get back to their schedules. I know it seems cold especially since you are the one going through the unthinkable pain but life does go on and I don't want you to cut your friends off. Stay strong and get out of your house and walk or go to church there is a lot of suport at a lot of churches
Good luck sweetie
Benita
On 4/19/2007 Sweetsteffers04 wrote:
My boyfriend who i loved very much and was also my best friend died about a month ago. He was only 21. We lived together in a small townhouse and went to college together in a small college town. I now live alone, and most of my friends aren't being that supportive. They seemed to care a little bit at first, but now they have all went back to their normal lives. They know i'm hurting, but i just consider them lost causes as friends because they would be here for me if they were my true friends, and i don't think i should even have to ask them, but i never made that many good friends here in the first place. I was mostly here to live with my boyfriend. We were together 4 years and i wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I feel so alone. I tried to get into group therapy at the hospice, but they told me that i can't join till summer session because they already started about a week ago. I've tried regular therapy, but it doesn't seem to work for me. I seem to get nothing out of it, that is why i wanted to join group therapy because i though having others around that went through the same thing would help. I spend every day alone in this house with all the memories we made here. I don't know what to do anymore. I am so lost without him. My whole life is going to be different now and i don't know if i can handle that.