I am writing because I am scared I just had a biopsy after my pap smear came back with squamous cells high grade I am waiting on the results I had a hysterectomy in 1984 and only have one tube and ovary left The gyn I see said that depending on what we find we could use a laser or I may have to have a different kind of surgery it is nerve racking The worst part right know is waiting I say my prayers and ask for help. The reason this is so scary for me I have lost two of my best friends to cancer My little sister Mary to brain cancer and both my parents have survived cancer and I lost one of my cats to stomach cancer two months ago . This is not the first time I have had problems I had a malignant tumor removed from my left breast along with lymph nodes about 10 years ago I have worked with cancer patients and have always participated in the relay for life and I keep a smile on my face and my chin up but I am scared