My husband was also diagnosed with stage lV in March at the age of 50. We are on our 27th treatment. 2 Cisplatins already-the third is in a week. His neck is begining to peel-be diligent with the lotion. He is now using only the PEG tube--make sure you practice with it before it becomes critical-We had to play around with a lot of formulas (Jevity just made him throw up) I understand your pain and sadness.