Hi, I am the 48 year old wife and my husband has Stage IV bladder cancer we have been battling for almost two years. I would strongly advise you to consider counseling with someone who is familiar with cancer or coping with chronic illness. I personally have seen a counselor through this trial, and I am professionally a mental health therapist myself. I also have found that many people benefit from a support group. Check to see if you have a "Wellness Center" in your community. They offer many free services and programs, often including support groups for caregivers. You are young to face all this and it is important you do what feels best for you to care for YOU during this difficult time. There is hope for a bright future when all the treatments are over, so getting through this trial with good supports can only help in my opinion. Best wishes!!