Dear Nicky
I am very happy to hear about your daughter. Thats awesome. I hear you when you say a broken leg is nothing compared to what she has already been through (bless her heart) Three years is awesome! I am getting a bit anxious because they did tell us that once two years passes in remission that the chances for her recurrence go down 10%. They said based on the fact that nothing was in her marrow, or anywhere else when she was diagnosed, that they felt it was isolated and so they gave her 80-20. After two years goes bye, they are figuring on 90-10.
We have watched countless kids not do so well, and then we have seen some great things but I understand that it seems that people only want to talk about this while they are going through it. I realized that with Erica (my daughter) this past weekend when we attended the Relay for Life. She didnt want to go. She didnt want to do the Survivor walk. I was kind of not happy with her because people need to know that there are survivors, yet the survivors feel guilty (this is what she finally told me) She knew of a little boy in the hospital with a brain tumor. He unfortunately didnt make it. Erica wonders why she did and yet at the age of 8, he was gone. She almost feels guilty that she had lived more life even back then and why did God choose him over her to take? I think parents may feel the same way, or they are happy to just have it behind them. Its tough to look back but truthfully, sometimes I need to look at the strength it took then and realize, I can do anything if I can do that. My daughter was my pillar of strength as well. We laughed, prayed, watched movies and just became closer. Ideally, under different circumstances, this is what every mom wants. It sucked is the best that I can say, but I remember it so vividly, especially walking into a hospital. Our house is currently up for sale because I just want a new beginning. It has been on for 4 months now, with no offers. I think God might have the right person in mind and they just do not know it yet.
Please write me anytime. I am always on here for something or another!
Carol Malloy