Hello, I am so sorry about your loss. I lost my dad about a year and a half ago to bile duct cancer. I was 21 years old. I've been feeling the same way. I've been missing him a lot lately. I don't know how to deal with it. I think about him everyday, and it feels like he just died.
I don't know what to write to make you feel better, because I don't know how to do that myself. There are people on this board to listen if you need to talk about your mom. I wish you well, and hope for things to get better.