Bless your heart...I lost my sweet mama to this deadly nasty cancer on April 1st of this past year. It has been 5 months and it's been so painful. She was diagnosed pretty much 6 months to the day she died. I miss her so much and can totally relate to you honey except that I am 36. It must be so hard to be so young and have to experience this huge loss. I would like to pray for you and encourage you. You can email me any time you feel sad and I will respond. My email address is --Message edited by CancerCompass staff. For personal protection, email address removed. Consider private reply. Please review CancerCompass Member Guidelines at http://www.cancercompass.com/common/guidelines.html-- . It's okay to cry and feel the pain...When I found out about the tumor last OCt. I spent every weekend with her and when she got real bad I moved back in with my parents to be with her and hospice the last 2 weeks. This is a journey sweetie and it will take time...allow yourself to heal and feel the pain. I feel the pain right along with you. My mom was my very best friend and the best nana to my children. God bless you honey. - Vicky