I,too, am walking in your shoes. My husband has stage 4 lung cancer with mets to the bones in 3 places. In 2 months time he is not the same person. He sleeps most of the time and is miserable when awake and can be demanding but I try to be patient.
Is it wrong to want your life back? I feel guilty going out for an hour and even going to work is a break even though I worry while I am gone. I do everything alone because he is too sick to go out. I know that sounds like a pity party but today has been one of those days. I just feel like the cancer is killing both of us and I hate all of it - the Dr's and meds and appointments and chemo. Then I feel so bad for feeling this way. Let me know if any of you feel the same so I won't feel so guilty. Thanks, Margaret