I am very sorry for your loss ,I just lost my wife on 01/05/04.Hope things are getting a little easier each day for you.I am missing my wife of 20 years very much also she was 46 died of respitory failure.It was her descision to be taken off the resperator and myself her son and daughter along with our daughters boyfriend were there with her .That has given me some comfort and srenghth being able to be there for her and the fact she is not suffering .Also as with your mother and my wife they would want us to kmiss them remember the good times and there love but go on in life and do as well as we can with what we do they certainly did that in there battles everyday.So keep the faith and do your best for your mon and my wife and I will do the same ,and yes I still cry everyday but I am back to work and taking care of my daily challenges we have to be able to move on and know they would want it no other way .Good Luck