My Mom, My best friend, has just passed away from lung cancer six days ago, With the whirlwind of getting a funeral ready ,its now quieted down and it is myself,my Dad and brother. I feel like i am going crazy. it feels like someone slipped me a bad hit of acid and i can't wake up.Today my Dad,who never drinks drank a half bottle of wine,he hasn't said two words to me,he just sits and stares. My Mom and Dad were married about 44 years and he needed her. She was the strong one,not him. All of us are fighting too, Right now i live upstairs from my Dad because when my Mom was taken ill my husband and i moved in. The cancer eventually spread to her liver and pancreas,the first day in the hospital she spoke just a little,the second nothing, and the following days she would just stare at you with her blue eyes tinged with yellow from her tainted liver,i broke down in front of her,i told her how much i loved her,she couldn't talk back but i think she could hear us, then she finally closed her eyes and was on pain killers ,she fought hard but within a week she was gone,she died in the hospital,the whole family was with her all week and she didn't pass away until the nurse wanted to turn her over ,she asked us to leave the room,i watched from behind the curtain i could see the nurses face and i knew she was gone. I feel like i have a hole in my heart and it hurts so very bad,I am afraid we(Dad and brother) will not recover from this. I'm considering prozac. I can't believe she's gone!!!! I feel like screaming Someone help this God Awful Pain go away! I don't know what to believe in anymore. I'd like to think we'll all meet again but i'm not so sure of anything anymore.