Sorry to hear about your loss. I know it's pretty devastating to lose a mom. I lost my mom a month ago and she was only 56 years old. Life will never be the same again. I truly feel your pain. My family was in a similar situation. My mom was on a respirator for a week and half and we couldn't exchange any words. Two days before she passed, she had tears in her eyes that were yellow. It was due to the jaundice. I felt like how can she just be gone. I felt like there wasn't much closure. I was hoping that she could still come out of it with prayers and miracles. But that didn't happen. The first week and the third week was the hardest for me. My dad would cry sporadically. My dad has become more humble with my mom passing. He's having problems giving away my mom's clothes away. I just cry out as much as I want and talk to my husband and friends about what I went through. That has helped out. Also, talking to other people on the cancer board has helped. Remember, you are not alone. I can say that my mom is no longer in pain which is the only comforting though. I also talk to her everyday by saying how much I miss her and how much I love her. I constantly remind my kids how much their grandmother loves them and I want my mom in heaven to hear daily that my kids also miss and love her too. I don't want my kids to ever forget about her. Another thing, I keep in mind that no one lives forever. Everybody in this world will die and I know I will die. It's just part of God's plan. God just needs your mom. I will keep a prayer for you and your family.