Sandi,
Thank you for your reply. I am sorry to hear about your loss too. Your mom just recently passed, it is very hard I know. My mom passed Dec. 23rd 2006. Some time has passed but it is extremely hard. I keep busy with my family. My kids were very very close with her and we lived 4 blocks away from her, so I try to keep it as normal as possible but sometimes we can't. I too lost my dad, he passed away 20 years ago at the age of 51. As time goes by, we both will have good days and bad. But this is what makes us strong. My mom was an extremely strong woman, she had Adreanl Cancer very rare 1-2 people per million get this, no exageration. She was diagnosed in 2004, she had one surgery per year. There was no protocol for this cancer, the doctors didn't have too much data on it, even Sloan Kettering. She had Crohn's so chemo was out of the question. Knowing all this, this is why my mom was able to talk to me the way she did. I treasure those talks, and I cry when I think of all the beautiful words she said to me.
I have been reading books, they have helped. What type of cancer did your mom have, are you married, do you have kids. Sometimes keeping busy is good and bad. I feel like an orphan, not having any parents, I think that makes it even harder. If you would like to talk again, please e-mail me,( they have a private e-mail) and never apologize for talking too long or too short about your feelings. I understand. Hope to hear from you. If not--take care of yourself, and look for those books they do help.
God Bless ---Marie