Ramon,
I think that was one of the best letters I have read in a long time. I broke down crying (sobbing), twice while I was reading. I am crying in bed, in the shower, in front of the computer. It's bad. My mom is my hero.
The advice you gave me is very detailed and amazing. I am going to print it out and try to follow every step.
The problem is that my mom cannot leave the hospital anytime soon. The cancer has affected her spine, and that has to heal before she can leave. Chemotherapy(?) starts tomorrow.
As for God, I do believe, although my faith is receiving a test right now. When I first heard, I prayed that it could be transferred to me. However great a person I have turned out to be, I am still the student and my mom the teacher. A few times in this world the student will pass the teacher, but not in this case - She is such a wonderful person to so many people.
Thank you for your words. I have trouble leaving the hospital at night and every morning I wake up in my tears. I am really questioning what we are all doing here if one of the strongest, caring people in this universe will die just leaving me here with a bunch of memories. I have to carry on living in this world until my time comes? Nobody is closer to me than my mom, by far.
Sorry for the babbling, my mind is very close to scrambled eggs right now.
Thanks again,
Carlos