Subject: Just Diognosed
Date: 09/22/2007
Hi, I was just diaognosed on Thursday after a biospy and got a call from my doctor that said I was in stage 111... This was by a fluke as I haven't been to my gyno for years , as I didn't think I needed to having a complete hysterctomy. Boy, was I wrong. I had been having having alot of pain, bleeding, and burning when I urinated. My main doctor had said I had a bladder infection and started me on atibiotics...Everytime I got up, walked or layed, I had the urge to urinate, even a when it was only a small amount. I hurt everytime I felt the need to go to the bathroom...Well, I just figured I had a fallen bladder again, which I had surgery for almost 25 years ago. My primary physician referred me to the gyno. They immediately saw the lump lesion and said they were concerned and wanted to do a biposy right then. Two more doctors were called in and the procedure was done immediatley...The only pain I had with the prodecedure was when the needle to deaden the area was administered and it was excruciating, but went away soon...They also did a pap which came out normal...I bled, but it also soon went away... They said they would call me within the week if anything came up abnormal... Two days later I got that dreaded call...I go in Oct. 2, for another procedure to see if its spread to my bladder and lympnodes...Yes, I am scared. Especially after hearing it is in stage 111...I don't want to put my family through all the radiation and chemo and having to take care of me, although they would without any hesitation...The reason, I have taken care of my father-in-law when he was alive and had multimyloma cancer which he only lived 2 years after diaonosed... I don't want to have my family to go through what I did with him, although I would have done it again...My main question is: Is there really a cure for this rare cancer, or is it just prolonged with the treatments and your quality of like is not good and your family suffers longer too? Is there a reason to really go through all of this, or just take day by day as it comes? Is this a death sentence? I just don't want my family to have to do through a prolonged depressing life if there really isn't a light at the end of the tunnel? Any answers would be greatly appreciated...I Do Love Life As It Is Now, enjoying my family, grandchildren and children...I just don't want to prolong anyones misery and worry...Am I wrong?