My mom was a wonderful woman. Loving, generous, strong,and selfless.
She passed away on 7/24/07. She fought 7 months to the day. She started the 5FU 1/15/07 and finished in June. She did really good during her chemo treatment, or at least she put on a good face for us. She never complained once. On 6/20/07 they attempted to remove part of her stomach but was unable to due to the fact the cancer had grown into her spleen, pancreas and colon and they found more spots on her liver. They put a feeding tube in her for nightime feedings. Then on 7/4/07 she had what they call a calcium build-up. She was in the hospital for a week. She was here in our world and in another world during this time, alot of hallucinations. Or at least to us it was hallucinations. When the calcium went down and she was back in our world 100%, she said she remembered everything she had seen and said it was like living in two different worlds at the same time and was stuck between both of them. The doctor told us that she needed to start on Taxotere. Without chemo treatment he said she only had days left, but with treatment she would have weeks. So, on 7/12/07 she started the Taxotere treatment. Went home the next day on 7/13/07. Then on 7/15/07 her calcium level went back up and she was back in the hospital. She slowly started to slip into the other world again and it was hard to communicate with her. The doctor said with her calcium level going up, this would be a good thing because she would be able to pass in a comatose state in peace. While she was in the hospital my mom was stuck between this world and the other place. She talked to people who were not there for us to see, but she seemed to be happy talking with them. On 7/19/07, my mom woke from her sleep early that morning and said to me she was ready to be with God and to call her children(My sister, brother and me). Everyone who loved her gathered around her that day at the hospital. We cried and laughed that day. It was the first day all week that she could clearly speak to us. My brother had recently found out him and his wife are expecting another child. My mom told us this child will be a beautiful little girl with blue eyes and red hair. My mom came home to my house on 7/20/07 for hospice care. She never woke up once she got to my house and seemed to have went peacefully in her sleep on 7/24/07 at 2pm.
I wanted to post this to help with my heeling and to hopefully help other people too. Not sure if it will, but I wanted to try.
My heart is forever broken and lost without my mom. She will forever be missed. I just wish I had more time. I Love you Mom.
P.S. Today my brother and his wife found out they are having a little girl. Now to wait and see if she will have red hair and blue eyes.