Hi, I'm brand new on this site and just want to talk with people who have, or are, going through what I am. I lost my wife July 22nd to Melanoma. She was only 30 years old and mother to a 4 year old beautiful little girl. I am having a pretty hard time dealing with this. The strange thing is that the first 2 or 3 weeks after she died were the easiest. It seems like it just keeps getting harder every day now. When it gets real bad, I usually self medicate with alcohol. That helps until the next day. Then things are even worse because alcohol is a depressant. My little girl, Maddi, started Kindergarten this year and my wife Jodi isn't here to see her. Jodi was a stay at home mom and substitute teacher, so the house just seems empty without her here. Can anyone give me advice on how to deal with this better?? Thanks in advance for anything ya'll can do.