Eileen,
I agree with everyone who has responded...you need to change doctors. I'm not sure where you are located, but if there is a major city that you could travel to when needed it would be well worth your time and effort. A major part of winning the cancer battle besides the treatment is a positive attitude and the will to win. That's difficult to do when your doctor is so negative and offers no support.
You are in my prayers that you are able to locate a doctor who is professional and has a heart and compassion.
Tranquillity