Hi Pat(Happy?) this is Beloved49(Melanie) I lost this site and just found it today. I quess they want us to use our screen names.
First, how are you doing? I am surprised to see so many people with this problem. You have a perfect right to be upset. What we all face is very hard and if you are alone, it's worse.
I have come to accept this thing that is killing me and have been reading some books I found listed at another site. They help to clear your mind and try to understand what is happening to you. I am still afraid as we all are and angry that there is no cure for me. At 56 I am too old for TBT. If I were young enough I'd go for it. Hope you get this and that I have the right person. Although it does not matter as we all are in the same boat. write if you want to talk.Why can't we exchange email address?