I am having trouble working this message board. I am afraid I do not know what you mean by at the hot spot as being part of your email address. I hope you get this. I have ordered the books. One book is called "Facing Death and Finding Hope" and the other is called (I think) "CutToThe Bone" When I get the books I will tell you the authors names. I have been told that these books help, we shall see. If you can email me, please do. If not I will post you again and look for your post. Till then, be brave my friend. Melanie