It's been a while since I have been on here. Thankfully my sis in law has lasted even longer. Unfortuantely, she is back in the hospital and in even worse shape then last time. I hope someone can reply fast enough to this one for me......
As I said, she is back in the hospital. Even more dilusional then ever before. As of today, they have her on oxygen, she is urinateing blood, and they know for sure her liver has shuut down. Yesterday she wasn't urinateing at all and she hadn't eaten in about 3 days. We got her to eat a little yesterday but I think only because today is my daughters birthday, and my daughter is very very close to her. Like a second mother to her. And when she realized it was her birthday, she started crying. I told her it was ok. But right after that, we got her to eat some apple sauce and italian ices and got her to drink some ginger ale. Then she urinated after 28 hours of nothing. SHE FILLED 2 BAGS!!! She could barely talk yesterday but we knew by the end of the night, she would still be there in the morning. SHe has will and we knew she didn't want to die on her nieces birthday. Well....today is my daughters birthday, and lastnight, she spiraled down hill.....as I said, she is now on oxygen, not allowed to eat or drink, (she gags on anything they try to give her) , she is urinateing blood and cannot talk at all. She gave hugs and kisses to everyone today, but I have a strong feeling we will get that dreadful call sometime tonight. We already know her liver shut down, and the amonia was backing up into her body. She is bleeding internally, so bad it's coming out of her mouth....and I am assumeing from the blood in her urine, her kidneys are almost shut down??? Is this really the end. Part of me is so selfish and wants the doctors to try something to save her. And I know that's not possible at this point. And the other part of me is hopeing she will pass away. I know how bad that sounds....but I can't take watching her suffer anymore. I know she isn't in pain right now....but she is so miserable. She is all skin and bones, her viens are all bruised and battered....it is just so sad. And I can't stand to watch it anymore!!!! DAMN THIS CANCER!!!!!!! She is so young....only 33....she hasn't even lived her life yet. She never got a chance to find mr. right....never had a chance to get married....never had a chance to have her own children. It is just so sad. Is it mean for me to say that I hope I get that call tonight??? I just hate seeing her like this. It's not even her anymore....she looks nothing like she used to look. she just looks like a vegetable laying there so helpless and lifeless. God bless all of you who are fighting this and all the families who have had to go through this. My heart is with you all! I guess I can be thankful that she has lasted for over a year. It's more than a lot of you can say for yourselves I am sure. Maybe that is just a miracle in itself!