Cath,
No one has discussed the pain that might be involved regarding death from this cancer. My weight has gone up (I'm assuming from the steroids and Ativan.) I've also been in a state of remission for about 2 1/2 years. I'm 60 years old. I try to think positive thoughts, and I have a wonderful pastor who comes to my home to give me communion. (It's very difficult and painful to get out and about.) I will pray for you. There is nothing stronger than the mighty power of God.
Stay strong,
Marico