Hey, so I’m 23 and I had this wonderful illness who took so much from my life, but yet at the same time, I feel that it gave me so much! Yes, that’s me confused. I don't know who I am any more. I feel as if everything I have ever been taught is gone. I can't remember anything, I ask the most obvious questions, I'm constantly hungry, tired, weak, and most of all irritated. I just remember when I knew my body so well, and how I knew what my reaction would be to things. Now I don't know if I’m coming or going and just when I feel like I have it figured out, something else comes along to prove me wrong and does the fear of this demon returning ever go away? Right now my latest affliction is my stomach----horrible heart burn 24/7 diarrhea, vomiting, just everything. So I’m freaking out that I have like colon cancer now----all my docs say that I’m to young for that---but being diagnosed at 18 kind of leaves me guessing. I’m trying so hard to lose weight, I do yoga every day, and try to eat healthy, but nothing is working. I’m desperate for help. I could go on all night but, I wouldn’t get anywhere--so please anything anyone can offer, I’ll take it.
Trying to cope,
Catherine