you are not alone, its ok,your job dosen,t understand, if they or any of them went threw what you have just went threw in the last 90 days,then they would be a little more understanding, and careing,its ok,forget them,you do what you need to do ,you can always, get another job ,they care nothing about what you are going threw, I lost my ex. husband 90 days ago also, and I never stop loving him, and I too have 2 daughters, and they keep each other strong, but I know they have there moments, I think I am worst,He was there hero, He died of stage 4 stomach cancer in a matter of 6mt. we werent even given a second chance, I too, am angry but one thing this has taught me, is to love my family every day, I know you feel alone but one door closes, and prayerfully another will open, keep going for your mom, she is with you, my daughters and I get signs all the time, stay focus, and remember you are not alone, dont give up! she wouldn.t want you too!