I am so sorry to hear of your Mother's passing. My husband died of colon cancer in November after a four year battle with that horrible disease and my Father died of lung cancer in 2000 so I can relate somewhat to what you are experiencing. Be kind to yourself. You are going through a horrible lost and though time will help you will always miss your Mom. I think of my Dad's death as a big hole that heals from the outside end and it doesn't take much to make the hole open. Now, I've lost my best friend and it's just unbearable at times. Most people will understand what you are experiencing. Those that don't now, will probably in time go through the same thing. Take care of yourself. Eat regularly, sleep regularly, move around and be among people. Call your sister. You can both be a huge support to each other right now even if all you do is just sit silently with each other. Also, pray! Even if it's just in the form of conversation it will help you more than you know and it will also reaffirm that you are not alone. Give yourself the time you need to mourn the lost of your loved one. I tell people that I'm just taking it a moment at a time and I truly mean it. I also cry when I least expect it and the silliest(sp?) things. I will be praying for you as well!
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Janice