It truly is hard watching someone you love slowly die before your eyes. To watch them in pain suffering. Hospice was really good about keeping my Mom out of pain, which meant she slept most of the time.
My Mom became really beautiful before she passed. All wrinkles vanished and she looked young again. I had nightmares for several weeks after she passed. It hurts so bad to think about it. I miss her so much. She was only 67 and I feel so cheated. I was busy with my own family for so many years and we had just really reconnected. I had bought her a computer for her 50th wedding anniversary and she taught herself how to email. She emailed me several times a day. For some reason I saved most of them. It is still too painful to go read them because when I do, it is like she never really left. She would always start them..Hello Little Darling. I don't know how long it takes before this pain stops. I know I will see her again in Heaven soon.
Hang in there. You did the best you could with a rough situation. You stepped up to the plate and took on the responsibilty. You should be proud of yourself. You did the right thing.
Eileen