Hi ... Having MM means that you go from tears to laughter( maybe hysterical) daily. We are all suffering in some way but I find this site helpful because we can share... whatever we feel like... and that will vary according to the place we are in at the time. The diagnosis was a bad shock... but what has been worse has been loosing my job - with it my income, interest, self-esteem, companionship. The disappearance of friends and family... living in poverty... There that's quite negative.. I live alone, my partner of 11 years has slowly withdrawn. BUT i have 3 adult children and I am determined to keep going and remain positive for them. It's very important having a reason to live.... being positive is hard, but it is actually good for you.... my best wishes Carol