Lynn-Thank you for sharing so deeply from your heart. Although I am blessed to still have my husband after 2 years with esophageal cancer, I lost a brother as a teen, so understand something about grief. The fact that you care deeply enough about others to try and help them with their burden too will help you to heal in time, but I know after 34 years that grief never truly goes away. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.