I lost my mom, my best friend on 12/21/2007 from pancreatic cancer. I was her caregiver and she lived with me basically since june. She was 63 i am 36--married with 5yr old and 2 yr old. My husband works evenings--so efore she became ill we were together 4-5 nights a week and talked her 4-5 times a day. When she lived with use i took care of her and we prayed for god to take her as she was suffering so much. It has been 15 days and i do not know what to do with myself. I am so empty and depressed. I wake up and cant wait for it to be nighttime to go back to bed. I think of her constantly. My brother called laughing last week, i said how can you laugh, he said i happy mom is not suffering any more and that makes me happy. Well i think of what he said everyday and it helps. Its not easy and it sucks, its not fair. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.