Dear Leslie, thank you for your response. I think you sound very beautiful. Just thought I would write a little. I am newly diagnosed. I think the strangest thing to deal with is the responses I receive from loved ones. If I hear how are you feeling one more time I am going to completely get well so I don’t have to hear it. I love them for it but it sure does get old. I keep wanting to go back to my old world and every time someone shows loving concern it takes me back into this sucky cancer thing. I have my whipple on Tuesday along with ovarian cyst removal and maybe even a hemorrhoid or two if I am lucky. Why not as long as I am on the butcher block. The hospital is nice, the doctors good, my family and friends very supportive but I still had rather stand on my head in a chicken factory and hang naked chickens. Or maybe visit Russia in the dead of winter and clean the sewer system. However I am going to kick cancer ass on Tuesday. So there. Tonite you are in my prayers, I have been reading romans, it is good.