My god, this just brought tears to my eyes. You loved Shannon so much. I have been lurking here, and reading everyones updates, especially yours and was so incredibly sad to read of her passing. My father passed away on September 25th from Stage 4 Gastric Cancer, and although it is so hard to get through every day without him, losing a spouse just seems so unfair. I pray to god to give you the strength to face each day with the courage you have already displayed.