On 1/21/2008
mikeshan wrote:
Hi all once again thanks for all your kind words and support. Its been a whirlwind sine fri the 11th. Planning a funeral service for your wife was unbelievably hard. Too much to think about in too litlle of time. her Service was beautiful it wasnt in a church as there isnt one in town to hold the 700 people who attended.We had it at the dow centre in the theatre. We had her pink Taylormade golf clubs on stage with her favourite pink and black Taylormade hat and her pink edmonton Oiler Jersey with her Pink Oiler Hat (Shann always had her ball cap on) . her sister made a 15 minute slideshow presentation that was wonderful from a baby to a young women. It was so beautiful. I have received lots of responses of being a man and talking about my feelings on this site but to tell you all its easier to talk to strangers(even though I feel like we are a big family) then to talk to everyone who knows me and walks in to our Bar & Grill. Sure I had my crying times and drinks the night of Shannons funeral with my best friends and we talked and laughed but this site is a great stress reliever. You can say anything and everyone understands. We had a viewing and that was the hardest thing I ever have done. I know some people need closure but I sure wish that would of never happened. Didnt look like her, all that embalming and stuff. Saying goodbye in the ambulance and the service was enough for me. Went to work on Fri the 18th and stayed in my office and just did paperwork. drove around the block of the bar 3 times before I could go in. Today (Mon) was better I worked lunch and served customers like I always do. I wanted to play a song at Shann`s viewing but after I went in the first time (i was gonna play the song at the end) I couldnt go back in the room at the funeral home. It,s called All I EVER NEEDED by Bret Michaels. The chorus goes We didn`t need fortune, Didn`t need fame, Just a little shelter from the rain, Your heart to hold on to, when times got tough you pulled me through, We didn`t need a castle made of stone, Just you there as I grow old, Your heart to hold on to, All I Ever needed Was You.....
I love i can just type and vent on this site you all r grear listeners. I hope everyone fighting this Demon Disease is staying strong. Dont Give Up. My little girl is my reason to go everyday what I would do without her I don`t know.
We say goodnight to mommy every night to the stars at the window `` I love u Always and Forever... Sweet Dreams``
I miss my wife
Mikey
hey, I know .... I Iost my husband 4 months ago tomorrow. It is VERY hard....sometimes it's like a dream....as it goes on I really can't believe how short of a time he was sick. It seemed like it was forever when he was. Now I hate looking at thoughs pictures of how he looked the last month. But of course I look at thoughs pictures even though I hate them.
We were married twenty years and did everything together. It's something you never really think would happen to you! It's amazing how everyone takes Life for granted because I know I sure did....He passed a way at home so I was there and saw him leave. I had to tell him to go that his Mom and Dad were waiting. He was ready prior but I know he was waiting for me to say it was time. I hate when people say at least he's not suffering anymore! Because I sure am!!!!......I had hospice here so that was very helpful..... He had esphogeal cancer. Hope you can find a light at the end of your tunnel. Just take each day a second at a time.....