Hi Bonnie, I too am working hard on trying to build up my immune system. I've sought advice from a pharmacologist and have had a complete blood workup to see what exactly my body is lacking, and take about 15 vitamins and amino acids daily. I think that is partially why I've responded well to chemo. I don't seem to have a problem responding well to treatment, but have a problem getting rid of the cancer completely! I guess that's the problem with having stage 4 OC. Back to the illeostomy nightmares, I also went through my bag breaking pretty much daily or every other day. The worst is when you're in public and you feel something start running down your leg; or in the middle of the night and have to ask your husband to help clean you up! It's amazing he can still look at me without throwing up! I never thought I would have to worry about leaking feces all over the place. Reading your message reminds me of everything I went through, (very similiar to you as far as illeostomy), and looking back, even though it hasn't been that long ago, it's amazing what we can endure. I am totally shocked that you didn't have a very hard time with taxol/carbo. That was, for me, the closest to death I think I've been(except when first diagnosed). Did you say you have nausea with Doxil? If so that surprises me too. I have had none. I do have days that I generally don't feel good but no nausea. From what my oncologist says it isn't one that makes most people sick. But like you said, everybody is so different. I haven't really sought the acupuncture avenue only because I'm afraid one more thing on my plate would just simply put me over the edge. I do believe that it's very beneficial and will probably try it at some point. After reading alot of these messages I feel like I'm one of the few that seems to be emotionally drained from the constant fight for my life. I know those feelings are normal but I am soooooooooo tired of it. Maybe I just reveal too much. I don't think alot of people want to talk about the negativity that they feel about being sick for fear that it will be a detrament (I know I spelled that wrong) to their recovery. I have found that unless I deal with it by talking about it, I'll never get through it. I don't think I'll ever get over being angry about it. Maybe that will help me in the long run, I tend to fight harder when I'm angry. We'll see. I'll end this for now, but I want to tell you that I apreciate your response and hope to hear from you soon. I hope today is a good day and tomorrow will be the same. You seem so positive, I admire that. You've been a big help today in lifting my spirits; before now it wasn't a very good day, so thank you!!!! Be well and take care. Love, KristaJ