Chris-I always choose to believe it's all going to work out, although there have been many days that would make it appear to the contrary. Of course I know it doesn't always work out, but I just can't let myself go there. There are survivors, and some of us have to be among those numbers. Sometimes you just have to find a way to let it out, but it doesn't mean you don't have faith in the process. The emotional toll is huge. Your Mom sounds strong, and like she is doing really well with treatments, and that's a great blessing. Will keep you in my prayers.