It's been two days and i haven't been able to say it. Although the early December CT was clean, the emergency bowel resection on Christmas with all the morphine (feeds cancer cells) that went with it was more than his immune system could handle. Oncologist did CT although we planned to skip it at 3 months in March (for the 1st time we were going to at least 6 months between scans) since he'd had surgery. He was thriving with tongren and we couldn't foresee a problem, but the surgery changed everything and we haven't been able to regain our footing. Lost 10 lbs we haven't been able to regain with surgery. The CT showed nodules in lungs again (4th time) so we will do PET Tuesday to get a clearer idea of what's up. Plan to tongren more intensively and get healthy cells producing rapidly and boost immune system. Changed school schedule to easier program rather than give up goal of summer certificate to return to world of work (we've been self employed over 20 years and I need a job), but know it will be rough if chemo happens again. All I can do is keep moving forward. I WON'T GIVE UP!!!