I am so sorry you are going through this again. As I feel the same for your mom. I am going through my own emotional struggle right now with my mom not taking anymore treatment or any alt. medicine routes. I made a huge binder of info., survivor stories, alt. medicine, clinical trials, herbs, flax seed. She is going to a big doctor appt. today and I wanted her to bring the book in to the doc. She had my sister call me and tell me she appreciates what I am doing but she just wants to live her life the way she wants to. I am devastated, sad, angry and darn right in a state of helplessness. I do not even know what to tell you and I am so sorry to tell you that. I hate this and I am sure you do also. I guess stay educated and just being there for your mom will help you and her. Nobody has the answers but my Grandma just told me the other day, "honey just pray,pray,pray and God will tell you what to do". Thats all I have left. And thats what I do. I try to live each day one at a time. At the end of the night if the day went ok, then I guess it was a good day. I pray for strength and I thank God for the breaths we take each day,and I pray for tommorrow. I hope everything goes well TODAY. Dani