my husband fought valiantly for 9 months against the pancreatic cancer that invaded his body. he did all the "right things" ie surgery, chemo, and radiation in the hopes that he would live longer in his newfound faith in Christ and love for his family and friends. in may, his cat scan was clear but by the middle of june, he had started to complain of back pain and by the 4th of july he started to have bloating and discomfort in his abdomen. this went on for almost 3 weeks. we had a cat scan that showed liver involvement and an ercp showing a tumor. the doctor told us he was dying but probably had several weeks to months left. it was as though the wind went out of jim's sails and less than two weeks later he was gone. i am grateful he did not have to suffer long, but it is true i think that hope helps us sometimes to carry on longer than we might have otherwise. but, jim doesn't have to live the rest of his life "looking back over his shoulder" worrying that the cancer would come after him... and neither do i. i am learning to live my life without him and looking forward into the future when i will be with him again. we all have to make really hard decisions sometimes..not really sure if they are "right or wrong". we just do the best we can and leave it at that. we love them. they love us. that's all that matters in the end. sincerely jimandkathy