just stay strong, I had my upper left lobe taken out in July 2007. Non small cell lung cancer stage 1A NOMO. Trust me I know the fear you have and all the things you are thinking. I never thought I would ever get lung cancer because cancer dosen't run in my family, but boy was I wrong. I don't smoke any more (dumb me ) I should have never started.I know what you are going through is so hard and you feel like you are alone and no one understands, and some don't , but as long as you have some one there with you, You will be ok. keep in touch
Just try and be strong.
Edith