I have just found out that my grandma has pancreatic cancer. I don't know how to deal with it. I don't want to show her that I am afraid, she needs me to be strong. The other day when I spoke with her I started to cry as soon as she picked up the phone. I really don't want to do that again becasue then I won't want to call or go see her. How do I deal with it? I am not used to dealing with type of crisis. Could someone please give me helpful advice on how to deal with this.